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When do you say "OK, this must not be part of God's plan"?
And when do you say, "I trust in you Lord, I will keep faith and not give up"?

This internal battle has spread itself to many parts of our life lately.  I've been praying so hard for answers.  I know my prayers are heard, I know He will answer.  But sometimes waiting for His answer and trying to interpret signs is just plain HARD.

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You see Hubsy and I have this dream to move to the country and build a simpler quiet life.  It's been building in us for over a year.  It's the kind of life we want not only for ourselves but for our boys especially.  Less busy, less stuff....more nature, more quiet, more discovery.  This past May we decided to go for it and make it happen so we put our house up for sale.  We found a sweet little house in the country on a dirt road with a lot of farm land around...perfection :)  Problem is we are having a very difficult time selling our house.  I won't go into the details but it has been a really rough road so far.

I have a beautiful house.  If I could pick it up and move it to the country  I would absolutely do that without a moments hesitation.  So...we are left to wonder if this is a sign that moving is not in God's plan for us at all?  Or just not now? Or should we keep trying?  Is our buyer right around the corner?  We find ourselves weary of the frequent showings we have and needing to leave the house.  This takes its toll on planning several aspects of everyday life...even just what to have for dinner since I may or may not be around to cook it : )  Not to mention our boys are homebodies (like us) and get quite cranky when they have to suddenly stop playing so we can clean up and leave on short notice.  But we know this is all part of the process of selling your home, it's just something you gotta do.

It tugs at our minds and hearts daily.
What about you?
Do you struggle with not knowing when to walk away from something and when to just try harder?

I'd love to hear your story, please share!

Sometimes God drives a Lexus

  "Ugh, why can't you just hurry up already?!"

Darn white Lexus.
That was the first thought that entered my head.  

I mean, he was doing 35mph in a 45mph zone.

Needless to say the driver did not head my silent urgings to find his gas pedal and learn to use it. 

It struck me out of nowhere that maybe this car was meant to be going slow.

Maybe...just maybe...there was a "higher" reason.

Like maybe the driver needed to get to his destination at exactly the right moment.

Or maybe by holding up the cars behind him just a little bit, he was actually preventing an accident from happening down the road.

You just never know.

There are so many times in life that I get just as frustrated and impatient with the Lord
as I did with that Lexus.

I am broken like that.  

Just when I think I am making progress in surrendering my need for control over to God, 

it creeps back up on me again.

Hubsy and I are facing some pretty big decisions in the coming months and 

I've really been struggling with the unknown.

"What should we do?"

"How is this going to work out?"

"What's the plan man!?"

Constant questions fill my mind and stress me out...like majorly and to the max.

I need to get back to that place of trusting His timing, His plan.

It is very much like staring down this long road but you can't see where it goes, everything's foggy. But with each step you take you can see just enough to keep going.
It's amazing how much we rely on "sight" to feel safe.
I don't know what is at the end of this road. Or if the path veers off around a wild bend or two along the way. But I do know that He will reveal the path to me bit by bit...when He is ready for me to see it.

When He is ready for me to see it.
 But boy the waiting is tough.  Not gonna sugar-coat it.
When it comes to answers, patience is not my forte.
Evidently it might not be my specialty when driving either ;)
 But you need to slow down, take a look around you.  You never know what may be
revealed to you during the "waiting".
And trust that you are waiting for a reason...that the waiting is part of God's plan as well.
I needed that reminder today. 
And God drove a white Lexus to impart it.