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Wednesday, July 6, 2011

Pillow Talk



I cried last night....for 2 hours.

It was great.

A true release of all I've been holding inside.  

And my husband was right there holding me all the while.  
I was the one that was crying but both of us were letting it all out.

We so rarely get to have honest-to-goodness conversations.  That's just the way it is with kids, there's always interruptions.  "I need a drink", "he took my toy", "can you change the channel", "I have to go to the bathroom", "look at what I can do"....you moms know how it goes.  So most of the time the only time my husband and I have to actually talk is laying in bed at night. 

We've come to the realization that we need to make some major changes in our life.  

When we look at our life from an outside perspective, it really is pretty great, so why are we so stressed out all the time?  Why do we look at the negative side of things?  Why are we short with each other so often?  We really did some self examination and it was time to get honest with ourselves and each other.  We talked about what we truly need from a bare bones perspective...God and family.  

When you consider the stuff we let ourselves get worked up over, it's laughable really.  

And the extent to which we let it bother us...utterly ridiculous.  

The scary thing is we can see the negativity seeping into our kids too.  We've talked about it a bit in the past and things improved for a little bit but we're really committed to making a lasting change.  It will be hard and I hope we can catch ourselves before we get caught in the same cycle of behavior that we've been in but we've decided not to focus on the past, really work on moving forward, starting today.

Change is hard and uncomfortable but we know the rewards will be great.  

So our first step is to simplify our lives.  Really examine what we can cut out and what we really need.  Again, not an easy task but in a weird way I am looking forward to it.  I'm sure we will end up finding it quite freeing actually.

I've never really asked someone to pray for me before but I ask you today my friends to pray for my little family...that we may live our lives for the Lord...that we look at the world outside of ourselves...that we let go of the earthly junk we have cluttered up our lives with....that we have hearts and minds full of positivity and love....that we are a blessing to others and each other.

Have you ever made a fundamental change in your life?  Were you able to make it stick?

I would be inspired to hear about it!  Please leave me comment or send me an email and share.

Thanks for your prayers friends!

10 comments:

  1. Making any kind of permanent change is tough, but you've already gotten through the hardest part: making the decision. Praying for you and your sweet family! Keep us updated on the progress you make!

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  2. Krista,
    This kind of pillow talk my husband and I have often, and it improves our marriage in such a great way.
    What a beautiful post....its your family before God. He always is prining us and asking us to step closer to him.
    I have no doubt you will start to see those improvements you hope for!
    <3

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  3. Krista, I will be praying for you and your family. I hope you keep us updated. We have tried to make changes, but nothing ever sticks for too long. But after reading this, you have inspired me to finally just do it. To make some changes. And, I just know we both can stick to it. :)

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  4. Such a wonderfully moving post! Krista, I'm so sorry that you've been having a hard time lately, but I know that this is just a step in the right direction for you and your family. Thank you for your honesty, and I'm here if you need me :)

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  5. I will certainly pray for you and your family! Sometimes the toughest decisions and changes are the ones that God wants us to make!! Hugs and prayers!

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  6. i had a let it all out kind of moment today too. it feels good to cry sometimes. i feel ya, girl. i'm so thankful that there's hope in Christ!

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  7. Such a great post! I don't know exactly what you're struggling with, but I will pray for you. Whatever it is though, I know God is in control, and He will make it all better!

    Thank you for stopping by my blog the other day. Those two puppies of mine are ROTTEN I tell ya! :)

    http://elizabeththomasblog.blogspot.com/

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  8. I really needed to read this. I am in the same position. we are in the midst of simplifying as well. Amazing post :)

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  9. Aahh, Krista - been wanting to write but haven't had time...so made time right now to stop and let you know I am (and have been) praying for you.

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  10. Hi Krista - I just started following you and this post is what inspired me to do so! I completely feel everything you have written about on this post - having just moved away from family and losing all of that support, the hubs and I have been tested more than ever as of late. It really is about the simple things - although it's not easy to let the "un-simple" go. I hope you're finding that balance! I look forward to reading more from you!

    http://gumdroppass.blogspot.com/

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