Dear God,
I need you.
This is certain.
But I feel like I can't find you.
I suppose the longing I have for a tangible relationship with you is natural and completely part of your plan. But I just can't help but feel frustrated and lost. I look for you in the things around me, and I do see glimpses of you but sometimes I feel like I need a really big sign. I want so badly to share you with my sons but how do I explain to them how to hear you when I so often feel like I can't hear you for myself?
How does one "hear" God anyway?
I know the best way to teach them is to lead by example. I want to have an ever increasingly strong relationship with you.
Teach me how.
I know you're here....but I long for so much more.
So I keep looking.
Looking at the world around me which you created....
good job on that by the way....it is awesome ;)
Reading the Bible. But it is bringing up so many more questions. I feel like there is something wrong with me that I don't understand the truths that are written in there. It scares me to even admit that.
So open me up Lord to all the ways you reveal yourself. Help me to see all the ways you are working in my life. Keep me from getting caught up in the things of this life and help me see things through your eyes.
Until next time...
Oh, Krista, my prayer for you is that you hear the Lord's voice in a way that you know it could only be Him. I have been through those times where I feel as if I am crying out and getting no answer. And it hurts. I know.
ReplyDeleteI have found that so often I am reminded of the Lord's continual presence in the littlest and yet most beautiful ways. I'll pray that for you.
Keep looking, keep seeking. I think of that verse with Ask, Seek, and Knock. I'll be praying that in your continual quest that those longings in your heart are heard and answered.
You are loved. And I am grateful for the friendship that you and I have developed.
Email me if you need to talk more.
Rachel
Beautiful, honest words. Words spoken at one time or another by many, I'm sure (and certainly by me). Keep reading and praying and seeking. He tells us His Word will not return void and when we seek Him, He will be found by us. And since He is faithful, He will. Could kick myself for not putting your package in the mail yet. Tomorrow, my Friend, tomorrow. Actually, I think now the timing just may be perfect... :) Love and prayers ~ Kelley
ReplyDeletep.s. ...and yes, I did paint those pictures. Thank you for your sweet words and encouragement.
Krista,
ReplyDeleteI love that you are so open and honest with your posting. It really makes your entries a pleasure to read.
I have to admit, I feel so much the same way at times. It's like you're in my head at times. :) Continue in your search and developing your relationship. I look forward to hearing about your journey!
Bless you! I'm so glad that I found your blog :)